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Caesar Zeppeli ([personal profile] mylegacy) wrote2015-11-22 06:54 pm

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"Leave a message, per favore; I'll be back before you know it."

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nextlineis: (☆ looking out at)

[personal profile] nextlineis 2016-08-16 04:06 am (UTC)(link)
[Distantly, Joseph thinks that he shouldn't be that sensitive. Whether it's touches, kisses, or bites, it shouldn't stir any strong reaction out of him because they are simple things. Simple things that become greater than their sum because it's Caesar who bites at his hipbone and kisses his thigh. It's Caesar's voice that vibrates against his skin and— Joseph has to bite his lip, but it's not to keep himself quiet. Honestly, he doesn't think he could even with a sincere effort because nearly every little touch from Caesar's mouth is enough to wordless pleas from Joseph.]

[It's that he wants to watch. He wants to, but he doesn't know if he can. For starters, it's not like he's ever done anything like this before, and as much as he'd never want to admit it, he still feels a giddy sort of nervousness resting right in the bottom of his chest. Which is strange because it's not coming coupled with hardly any worried thoughts rising to the front of his consciousness. He trust Caesar. He trusts Caesar with his life, with his everything. He loves Caesar. If any single one of those things weren't true, this wouldn't be happening either because Joseph or Caesar wouldn't allow it to happen. So, it's the energy of the nervousness that's trying to settle more than anything, and as Caesar's kissing along his cock, Joseph's fighting every urge to squirm and fidget. His breathing's all gone to hell, but he could care less because he remains relatively still and that's what's important.]

[But oh, he can't watch. Even biting his lip to give him something else to focus on, Caesar's lips on him override any other sensation, and Joseph has to look up at the ceiling just for a few seconds as he sucks in a breath and simply forgets that he's supposed to breath out. Next time, he thinks. Greedily. He realizes that's a greedy and terribly selfish thing to think that there will be a next time when he hasn't had an answer beyond I want you. Which isn't a bad answer. It's given Joseph hope, and he's allowed himself to believe there's a chance that even if it doesn't really mean I love you, I'm just not sure, it might someday mean I love you. He lets the breath go and it's a jagged, rough thing, but it's gone and he remembers to breathe in again somewhere in there, and it's then that he manages to work up the nerve to look again.]
nextlineis: (★ what it is like)

[personal profile] nextlineis 2016-08-28 07:23 pm (UTC)(link)
[Nope.]

[Nope. Nope, nope, nope.]

[Nope.]

[Nope, looking was a mistake. A great, beautiful, dizzying, and wonderful mistake, but holy shit that was a mistake. It's tough enough just feeling Caesar touch, kiss, and lick him. It's another to see him do it. To see him do it with that smile . . . Joseph wants to die. Only a little. Maybe that's weird. Maybe it isn't. But he wants to die a little because he doesn't think he can take Caesar looking at him like that with that handsome smile by itself let alone making eye contact with him while he's—]

[Joseph hisses a sharp curse and looks back up at the ceiling. And without even really meaning to, he squirms. He squirms and lets out a helpless little noise as his grip on Caesar's shoulder tightens enough that blunt nails are starting to dig. Joseph sucks in his lower lip, biting it again. But it's no use. That look in Caesar's eye and the curve of his smile are stuck in Joseph's mind and he knows it's going to be a while before he'll be able to not think about it and feel it all the way from the top of his head to his toes. Joseph squeezes his eyes shut tight, unsure if he's trying to shake the image away already or if he's just trying to focus on it more.]

[It shouldn't be this easy to drive him crazy. He thinks. Maybe. Maybe it doesn't matter. He doesn't know and he doesn't have the energy to put into thinking about it. So right now, it doesn't matter when he has to focus this much on remembering to take at least somewhat regular breaths of air.]