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[mylegacy]

"Leave a message, per favore; I'll be back before you know it."

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[lapidarius]

i can not in good conscience advise robbing a bank

[mylegacy]

i would probably be good at it

[lapidarius]

THAT'S EXACTLY WHY I'M SAYING DON'T DO IT

[mylegacy]

that's a bad reason not to do something

[lapidarius]

caesar do not rob a bank just to get out of accepting help from someone, please

[mylegacy]

what

how did you know that's why

[lapidarius]

because i would do a lot of stupid shit to avoid asking for help

also i know you

[mylegacy]

well

i don't want to just beg for money!

[lapidarius]

i really don't think 'i'm technically supposed to be dead can we get some paperwork to disprove this so i can get a job' qualifies as that

[mylegacy]

IT MIGHT

alternately i might be arguing just to argue

[lapidarius]

we're both very good at being stubborn for the sake of it

[mylegacy]

it's easy to think about being proud instead of other things

[lapidarius]

usually, yeah

it's the easiest thing to fall back on rather than start addressing having actual emotions, probably

[mylegacy]

i really don't know how to have those

i keep thinking about going back and then making myself stop thinking about it because it won't happen and even if it did it wouldn't be the same

like it is here

but i want it to be

but also i don't want to think about it

[lapidarius]

i've had the opposite problem

i'm trying the best i can to convince myself that i'm going to go back no matter whar, and most of the time i can believe that. i've been trying since the day i got here to convince myself that i'm still alive. but sometimes i have to acknowledge that there's a real chance going home isn't possible no matter how much i want it.

it scares the hell out of me

and i don't always want to talk to jojo about it because i know he's as fucked up about it as i am

so basically i try not to think about it either

[mylegacy]

see being worried about that makes sense

being worried about stupid trivial things doesn't

it's ridiculous to worry about whether someone will like me when really i know i'll never go home

[lapidarius]

we don't know that. we know there's a chance of it, yes, not that it's definite.

i like you. so if there's even the slightest chance we can go back i'm going to make sure it happens.