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"Leave a message, per favore; I'll be back before you know it."

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if it makes you feel better i can show you the list of things i have to explain to my parents

-hierophant
-running off to egypt
-being dead
-everything this city chooses to be
-befriending the mafia
-dating a juvenile delinquent who solves most problems with his fists

there's probably more but i can't think of it right now

i don't even want to think about my list

it's not even my parents, it would be easier if it were my parents, but i'm supposed to be an example or something

yeah you probably have it worse

or at least more difficult

i mean it doesn't matter because i'm not going back but if i did

. . .

could i get a job

can dead people get jobs

if i can't get a job and the foundation doesn't give me a stipend my family can't eat

maybe i could steal someone's identity

i kind of have a feeling the foundation would arrange something before you had to leap to identity theft

they're good at handling the loose ends that come with impossible things like this

oh

what do i

hm

wouldn't that be a conflict of interest somehow

what do you mean?

well the joestars and me

all of that

it might be complicated, sure

but you're still joseph's friend first and foremost. i'd think that he'd want to help you out with something like that with whatever resources were available.

or i could rob a bank

i can not in good conscience advise robbing a bank

i would probably be good at it

THAT'S EXACTLY WHY I'M SAYING DON'T DO IT

that's a bad reason not to do something

caesar do not rob a bank just to get out of accepting help from someone, please

what

how did you know that's why

because i would do a lot of stupid shit to avoid asking for help

also i know you

well

i don't want to just beg for money!

i really don't think 'i'm technically supposed to be dead can we get some paperwork to disprove this so i can get a job' qualifies as that

IT MIGHT

alternately i might be arguing just to argue

we're both very good at being stubborn for the sake of it

it's easy to think about being proud instead of other things

usually, yeah

it's the easiest thing to fall back on rather than start addressing having actual emotions, probably

i really don't know how to have those

i keep thinking about going back and then making myself stop thinking about it because it won't happen and even if it did it wouldn't be the same

like it is here

but i want it to be

but also i don't want to think about it

i've had the opposite problem

i'm trying the best i can to convince myself that i'm going to go back no matter whar, and most of the time i can believe that. i've been trying since the day i got here to convince myself that i'm still alive. but sometimes i have to acknowledge that there's a real chance going home isn't possible no matter how much i want it.

it scares the hell out of me

and i don't always want to talk to jojo about it because i know he's as fucked up about it as i am

so basically i try not to think about it either

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