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[mylegacy]

"Leave a message, per favore; I'll be back before you know it."

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[mylegacy]

. . . I don't know, she just might.

Do you want me to talk to him? Would that help?

[ragazzina]

I don't know. You don't have to, maybe you're both right that I'm worrying too much.

...But you promise you won't think I'm leading you both on? If you both keep...talking about the future, and including me in it, and flirting. It's hard not to return that but I won't do it if it means you'll think I'm fickle or leading you both on.

[mylegacy]

No. No, we won't think that. That's not what you're doing, is it? I don't think it is.

It's nice. Good. I like it. It feels right, don't you think?

[ragazzina]

Of course it's not!! I just...

...It always makes me really happy, no matter who it is, but that doesn't mean it doesn't matter who it is! Because you're not Jojo and Jojo isn't you, but you both...

If I had to choose I don't think I could do it.

[mylegacy]

And if you didn't have to choose, and things stayed how they are now, would you be happy?

[ragazzina]

Um.

Well...I'd like to get married, too, and maybe have a family...

[...]

But I could live without that, and it'd still be okay.

[mylegacy]

I want you to have what you want.

[ragazzina]

I...don't understand.

I can't marry both of you, can I? So then...

[mylegacy]

. . . I probably shouldn't say things that are - I shouldn't, without talking to him.

[ragazzina]

I'm sorry. I promise it's really okay, silly curiosity is...that's all it is, silly curiosity and worrying about nothing, haha...

[mylegacy]

What you want isn't silly.

[ragazzina]

(っ。-‿-。)ε ᴖ ✿)

[mylegacy]

You're very cute, Suzie, but I really do mean it. We'll find a way to get you what you want.

[ragazzina]

...If it were only up to me...and no matter what, anything I said would be okay...and I could have it exactly the way I wanted it, no matter what...

I think...I would want to get married and have a family, but stay just the way things are right now, too. Somehow. And not...have anyone think badly about it, or say unkind things. I think it would be nice to just...feel, whatever I feel, and not get caught up in all the reasons why it might be wrong. Because I know what I feel, I just don't know what to do about it.

[mylegacy]

All right. So tell me what you feel.

[ragazzina]

...Ti voglio tutti e due.

I think I could say ti amo to either of you, if you said it too. I wish I could split my heart in half, so there were enough for everyone.

[mylegacy]

[Oh. Oh. Give him a minute. He's not having a panic attack, you're having a panic attack.]

But then your heart would hurt, Suzie Quatro, and your heart isn't allowed to hurt.

[ragazzina]

It's been hurt before. That's how I already know it's strong enough to hold up no matter what, Caesar Z.

[mylegacy]

That doesn't make it okay. We're supposed to protect you.

[ragazzina]

But from what? My own feelings?

[mylegacy]

If that's what you want. If that's what you need.

[ragazzina]

...It goes both ways. It can't be just about what I want, either.

[mylegacy]

I know. Because you'd be sad if it wasn't what I wanted, right?

[ragazzina]

Because it's not just about me. I'm only one piece.

[mylegacy]

And we're both pieces, too. Right?