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[mylegacy]

"Leave a message, per favore; I'll be back before you know it."

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[mylegacy]

[Everyone involved in this is such a mess.]

I think it will all work out. That's what I think.

[ragazzina]

So I don't have to worry about two proposals...

Mm, but that still doesn't say whether I have to think about any...but I guess you'll figure that out yourselves...

[mylegacy]

You

I

[HELP]

You're worried we're going to fight. We're not going to fight. We're just

[FUCKING]

. . . What is it that you want? You haven't said that. You just keep asking what we're going to do.

[ragazzina]

I know. Jojo said neither of you would fight over me.

[That was in fact a thing that was said.]

...

I want to not hurt anybody's feelings. That's why I'm worried.

[mylegacy]

He said that to you? With his mouth. Cristo.

You won't hurt our feelings. What else do you want?

[ragazzina]

I knew what he meant! Sort of...

[But then there's a pause.]

You both kiss me and you both hold me. You both take care of me and you both try to cheer me up when I'm feeling bad. Both of you call me your best girl. I want to know how that means someone's not going to get hurt.

[mylegacy]

[Well, he could make a lot of bullshit excuses here. He really could. But the honest answer is he kind of has no idea, and he's pretty sure the person at greatest risk for getting hurt here is Suzie, which is the last thing either of them want, so - fuck.]

I'm not worried, because . . . it's hard to explain. But I know neither of you would ever hurt me. I used to be worried about that, but I'm not anymore. We all protect each other.

[ragazzina]

I don't want to leave you out, even a little.

...But I also don't want to move to New York and expect Jojo to take care of me with nothing in return, that's not fair. And his granny would think horrible things about me.

[mylegacy]

She might think horrible things about me too.

[ragazzina]

About you too? ...Why?

[mylegacy]

. . . I don't know, she just might.

Do you want me to talk to him? Would that help?

[ragazzina]

I don't know. You don't have to, maybe you're both right that I'm worrying too much.

...But you promise you won't think I'm leading you both on? If you both keep...talking about the future, and including me in it, and flirting. It's hard not to return that but I won't do it if it means you'll think I'm fickle or leading you both on.

[mylegacy]

No. No, we won't think that. That's not what you're doing, is it? I don't think it is.

It's nice. Good. I like it. It feels right, don't you think?

[ragazzina]

Of course it's not!! I just...

...It always makes me really happy, no matter who it is, but that doesn't mean it doesn't matter who it is! Because you're not Jojo and Jojo isn't you, but you both...

If I had to choose I don't think I could do it.

[mylegacy]

And if you didn't have to choose, and things stayed how they are now, would you be happy?

[ragazzina]

Um.

Well...I'd like to get married, too, and maybe have a family...

[...]

But I could live without that, and it'd still be okay.

[mylegacy]

I want you to have what you want.

[ragazzina]

I...don't understand.

I can't marry both of you, can I? So then...

[mylegacy]

. . . I probably shouldn't say things that are - I shouldn't, without talking to him.

[ragazzina]

I'm sorry. I promise it's really okay, silly curiosity is...that's all it is, silly curiosity and worrying about nothing, haha...

[mylegacy]

What you want isn't silly.

[ragazzina]

(っ。-‿-。)ε ᴖ ✿)

[mylegacy]

You're very cute, Suzie, but I really do mean it. We'll find a way to get you what you want.

[ragazzina]

...If it were only up to me...and no matter what, anything I said would be okay...and I could have it exactly the way I wanted it, no matter what...

I think...I would want to get married and have a family, but stay just the way things are right now, too. Somehow. And not...have anyone think badly about it, or say unkind things. I think it would be nice to just...feel, whatever I feel, and not get caught up in all the reasons why it might be wrong. Because I know what I feel, I just don't know what to do about it.

[mylegacy]

All right. So tell me what you feel.