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What did you talk to Jojo about, Suzie? Or is that a secret?

I asked about going to New York. (๑ˇεˇ๑)

Oh? And he said you're coming with us, just like I told you, I bet.

Mmhmm! I said it sounded like you two had it all figured out and he said he'd definitely thought about it a lot.

...

I'm not going to have to pick which of you I like better, am I? I can't pick something like that, not if it's serious and not just playing around...

[................... inhales]

[SCREAMS INTERNALLY]

What do you mean? Did he say something about that?

Um.

Just the opposite? He didn't really answer when I tried to ask, so...

[Thank you for actual fuckall, Joseph Joestar, he is going to throw you out an airlock.]

So you're worried about it.

[Think of something think of something think of something to say god shit]

When you say "pick", you mean . . .

Do you think there's nothing to be worried about? (•́ ﹏├┬┴┬┴

[Everyone involved in this is such a mess.]

I think it will all work out. That's what I think.

So I don't have to worry about two proposals...

Mm, but that still doesn't say whether I have to think about any...but I guess you'll figure that out yourselves...

You

I

[HELP]

You're worried we're going to fight. We're not going to fight. We're just

[FUCKING]

. . . What is it that you want? You haven't said that. You just keep asking what we're going to do.

I know. Jojo said neither of you would fight over me.

[That was in fact a thing that was said.]

...

I want to not hurt anybody's feelings. That's why I'm worried.

He said that to you? With his mouth. Cristo.

You won't hurt our feelings. What else do you want?

I knew what he meant! Sort of...

[But then there's a pause.]

You both kiss me and you both hold me. You both take care of me and you both try to cheer me up when I'm feeling bad. Both of you call me your best girl. I want to know how that means someone's not going to get hurt.

[Well, he could make a lot of bullshit excuses here. He really could. But the honest answer is he kind of has no idea, and he's pretty sure the person at greatest risk for getting hurt here is Suzie, which is the last thing either of them want, so - fuck.]

I'm not worried, because . . . it's hard to explain. But I know neither of you would ever hurt me. I used to be worried about that, but I'm not anymore. We all protect each other.

I don't want to leave you out, even a little.

...But I also don't want to move to New York and expect Jojo to take care of me with nothing in return, that's not fair. And his granny would think horrible things about me.

She might think horrible things about me too.

About you too? ...Why?

. . . I don't know, she just might.

Do you want me to talk to him? Would that help?

I don't know. You don't have to, maybe you're both right that I'm worrying too much.

...But you promise you won't think I'm leading you both on? If you both keep...talking about the future, and including me in it, and flirting. It's hard not to return that but I won't do it if it means you'll think I'm fickle or leading you both on.

No. No, we won't think that. That's not what you're doing, is it? I don't think it is.

It's nice. Good. I like it. It feels right, don't you think?

Of course it's not!! I just...

...It always makes me really happy, no matter who it is, but that doesn't mean it doesn't matter who it is! Because you're not Jojo and Jojo isn't you, but you both...

If I had to choose I don't think I could do it.

And if you didn't have to choose, and things stayed how they are now, would you be happy?

Um.

Well...I'd like to get married, too, and maybe have a family...

[...]

But I could live without that, and it'd still be okay.

I want you to have what you want.

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